Green-Eyed Monster

Jealousy has its ways of rearing its unwelcomed head every now and then. It just so happens that it has been happening to me a lot more lately.

I've been hearing a lot lately from random people ranting about how they were so close to getting an "A". Given, I used to be the same way, but after sometime of continuous humbling in college I've honestly become a bit bitter every time I hear someone rant about this.

To add insult to injury, I've lately been reminded of what people can do and what I cannot do. At the same time, I've also been reminded of what I have and don't have. So one can imagine how bitter I am not.

But through bitterness and jealousy, I've come to realize more and more of how imperfect I am and in a broader sense how imperfect people are. That is not to say that I'm better for it. No, far from it, it is just a reminder of how much more that I have to be grateful for what the Good Lord has already given me.

a closetful

I've seen this and have come to realize more and more that people are broken inside. People are always putting up a front of some sort to hide their true feelings and whatnot. I recently said to a friend, some people have a few skeletons in their closets while some may have graveyards.

Why the secrets? Why the shame? Is it because we want to show other people that we are not less than perfect? Is it because we do not like to be reminded that we have limits? Is it because we do not like to be reminded that we are human?

Maybe it is all of these. Maybe not.

so called invincibility

I've always heard about how young people think they are invincible. They are in a sense. They can eat whatever, drink whatever, do whatever, etc. etc. and yet not suffer from the long term effects of it until many years later, given they live to a ripe old age.

What many do not realize is that life is ever so fleeting. Sickness, handicaps, and the such all can inhibit one to fully live life. Knowing this, why do the young'uns still do such foolishness? Is it because they either they don't know any better, doing it out of boredom, or just for kicks?

If the end result is death and for the reasons listed above, why are the young ones still doing so? It probably cannot be explained, all I hope is that they wise up sooner than later.

something beautiful

A while back I heard my friend say that they stopped loving someone. Their remark had got me thinking. Can we stop loving someone? Is this possible?

After much thought, I concluded this cannot be so. Love comes from God and if our God is the living and everlasting God, than how can something as beautiful as love cease? Now I know I must sound oh so hopeless romantic, but still, think about it.

Many times I have heard the analogy of one's heart as a pie. Once someone significant comes into their life, they begin to share the pie with that someone. If for whatever reason that someone leaves, they also take a part of the pie with them. That part of the pie can never be reclaimed or put back.

How then can we stop from letting our pies be picked apart and left with nothing? We cannot but must trust that God will take care of us and help us find that someone who will not take it for granted.

under the weather?

Recently there has been this wave of hot weather, somewhere around 100+ degrees Fahrenheit more so humid making it extremely unbearable. Today, however was only a mere 85 degrees making today very comfortable.

So what is the point of me complaining about the weather? With this sudden drop in temperature made me appreciate the relief and that sometimes things are a lot better than they seem. Once you've seen the worse you don't mind seeing the bad.


Be grateful and appreciate what you have now. When it's gone, you might not ever get it back.

"Idols"

I've realized that I and I'm pretty sure other people do this too in that we put too many people on pedestals. Why do we idolize the people that we do?

Maybe because we are so entranced by what they have done and know no other one like them? This could be a reason, but time and time again these "idols" have failed me and I lose hope in these people. When hope is lost, it takes too long of a time to rebuild and regain that hope.

So are we not to hope in people and put them on pedestals? I'm not even sure anymore. If we do, do so with a grain of salt.

Families that pray together...

The other day I came into church and sat way in the back as usual. As I was reading the bulletin waiting for service to begin, I noticed out the corner of my eye a grandmother and her 2 grandchildren. They went into the pew in front of me and sat down and from that moment it stirred up something in me.

I was happy to see this instance in somebody's life. Some grandmother I do not know bringing her 2 grandchildren to church. These kids are really young, probably 8 at the oldest. I remember at that age, nobody can sit still for more than 2 seconds. I expected them to be standing up and crawling in/on/under the pews, just hyperness. Yet she brought them in and sat them down, and it is from this instance I realized how much she really loved her grandchildren.

How many families still bring in their kids to hear the Good Word? I know a lot of them do maybe out of habit, maybe because they really do feel that they need it. It really is a blessing to hear it and be able share it with your family and friends. I can't describe that feeling but it's a good one. Hallelujah!